Thank you for your support for those of you who have left comments. Lately I have been needing all the encouragement I can get.

We found out the problem with mom's blood. Its a blood disorder called myelodysplastic syndrome. Also known as preleukemia. Apparently there is treatment for it, its genetic (although I did also read some things saying it could be caused by environmental factors), and its good because its not leukemia. I'm just so irritated that's not one of the first things they checked. Anyone who's ever seen a lot of scrubs episodes knows what a lot of bleeding is a symptom of.

Well today went... okay. I finally ate something today (hadn't eaten since Saturday). I talked with Laura and things were okay, and I cried a lot, and I still am not sure what I am going to do. I think I'm going to have to call it quits with this guy I've been "seeing." He's looking for me to be there when its convenient to him not all the time, and I am just weary of it, and it has really made me feel like garbage... and that's a nice way of putting it really.

Sometimes I'm afraid that I will never be happy because of the circumstances of my life that I cannot control. I really don't remember when I have felt this hopeless and alone.

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Romanava said…
My heart really goes out to you. I will lift you and your Mom up in prayer often throughout the coming days. Love ya!
10:39 AM
sara jean said…
Kristen, it sounds like you need to be reminded of the Love of our Lord. Run to Him, get lost in His Word and hear His gentle voice comforting you. Rom. 8:37-39,Ps.121
Ps.139, if you need more, just let me know...hang in there.
3:30 PM
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