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Good Men

Are there any good men left? Not just men, but good men?

This is why I ask:

Last night I was minding my own little business when a guy I went to HS with messaged me. I never really associated with him in HS, and don't know much about him really. He started asking me questions like "Would you have gone out with me if I had asked in HS," and stuff like that. I didn't want to be mean (because No, I wouldn't have), so I tried to be diplomatic about it. Then he asked me if I was single. I thought this was odd, because I knew for a fact he was married and had a baby, because I had spoken to his mother (not realizing who she was) last summer.

So it proceeded to get creepier.... he said if we were both single, that he'd take me out, because I was "looking good" and that he wished we were both single. Apparently I had no say in the matter. He would take me out if we were both single, whether I wanted to or not!

He asked me if I wanted to see a photo of him. …


So I have had multiple people say to me that they think I have a good heart. They say something like this "You have a good heart. I just wish you would let more people see that about you."

Here's the problem with that:

I have many times allowed people "in." I've allowed people to see into my heart. You know what has happened? A lot of bad things. My heart has been broken and stomped on. I've been taken advantage of, stolen from, and mistreated in other ways. Disappointed... over & over again. Not just romantically either. This has happened to me with people I thought were my friends.

This is very difficult for me to deal with. It has made me really have problems with trusting people.

This is not uncommon. For a long time I shut myself off completely from meeting new people.  I have been better lately but it is something that I have to work on. I'm really, really trying. No matter what other people might think.


I was thinking recently... that I feel that life has changed me. Obviously that is going to happen. I dare to say we all change in some way over years. We hope and pray we change for the better. However, in some ways I have changed for the worse. I feel like life has caused me a lot of pain, and that pain has made me distant from people. Generally I don't warm up to people like I used to. And it doesn't take much for me to put that distance between me and an individual or group if I feel I've been hurt or burned by them.

I've had a lot of people (not just men) treat me badly and it has changed me. I read my old journals and I can see straight into the heart of this young woman who cared more about others than herself. Who opened herself up to new friendships, who hoped for a relationship that she always dreamed about.

Now I'm cynical. I wonder if it's possible to have a relationship (marriage) like some of my friends have, who are married to their best friends,…

Know your worth

If a man is in a relationship with someone else, know your worth and don't give them the time of day. If they are going to cheat on their significant other, they will probably cheat on you too. Don't obsess over a man who isn't willing to be in a relationship with you.

Some women just make me sad, because they don't realize these things.

Pleasz Roy Daniels, Roy Daniels Grand Rapids, Michigan a.k.a. Mark Roy Daniels

The only reason I am writing this is so in case someone else in the Grand Rapids, Michigan area happens to google this man.

I was seeing this man, Pleasz Roy Daniels, also known as Roy Daniels (he also lies online currently saying his name is Mark Roy Daniels) since January 2013. Yesterday I broke it off with him after looking at his phone. He was talking about marriage, and buying a home together. I looked at his texts and found someone saved in his phone as "My wife." I don't know who this girl is because he came into the room before I could see it. I wanted to warn her that he's been seeing me for 4 months, and I assume he's been seeing her too. I am the one who helped him when he was in trouble a few months ago. He probably told her that he was working when he was with me. The night i found the texts (middle of the night On January 26) - she had written to him "I wish you were home tonight."

I'm watching out for you. I think that he's been …