Haven't blogged in a while

My friend doing a fantastic giveaway. I've recently started couponing and looking for any great deals until John can start working (due to immigration issues - but he is legally here!) Anyway, go to this site and you can enter the contest up to four times! Good luck (although I still do want to win)!

Here is the site:

http://jessicasheets.com/?p=1090&cpage=1#comment-11994

Frustrated.

I thought I had a great weekend! I spent it with a guy who is great! He's generous, Godly, and likes me for me.

I've only goten one text from him since. I'm a bit worried, since he donated a kidney, therefore only has one. I hope he is okay. I am also worried that maybe he didn't like me that much. :( He was in the hospital for a short amount of time, at least til tuesday. He told me that he was released.

So I'm a little confused... a friend told me I shouldn't have cause to worry yet. I don't know how when I should start worrying. I feel very rejected either way!

Free Credit Score?

Don't ever use free credit score.com. I hate these people right now. They tell you that they will give you a credit score free, then ask for your card to "verify your identity" and then charge you a 15 dollar "membership fee" for them to watch your credit score. Then when you call them, like I did they say "you got a free credit score." I told them, No I didn't because you charged me. Then they gave me my money back.

ALSO, never buy anything online through walmart. I did.. well tried.. twice this weekend. First Friday I put in an order for a laptop. Then it got cancelled, which they never told me. I only found it was cancelled by checking the status of my order. They said it was cancelled because they "couldn't verify the security of my payment" or some BS. I used paypal!!!

Anyway, Then SATURDAY, I tried again using my debit card. So, they cancelled it AGAIN stating that it was basically an inventory issue (they didn't have it). It was never shipped, so they should have never even had anything on my bank account. Well, today I still have a hold a boatload of money on my account because as they say "it takes time for the authorization hold to come off." Why would they even put a hold on an account when they don't even HAVE the product?! This makes no sense to me. I have contacted their customer service (which like many places like that SUCKS), and they supposedly were sending a fax to my credit union. I e-mailed AND called my credit union. NO response to my e-mail yet, and when I called they transferred me to a woman and all I got was her stupid voicemail. I am really ticked off about this, and if this girl gets charged and NSF fees either walmart of my Credit union is reiumbursing me for that!!

How I feel today.

Lyrics to a Buckcherry song called "sorry"


Oh I have a lot to say was thinking of my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same

Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me want to die

I'm sorry I'm bad I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds,
and baby the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry

This time I think I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame


Every single day I think about how we came all this way
the sleepless nights and the tears you've cried
its never to late to make it right
all right sorry

I'm sorry I'm bad I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds,
and baby the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry

I'm sorry baby
I'm sorry baby
yeah
I'm sorry

Miley Cyrus is a mentor On IDOL?!

Wow. I just read an article online (link is above.. click on the title of the blog) that says that Miley Cyrus is going to be the "mentor" on this week's "Idol." Really AI? Couldn't find someone better than MILEY "Man voice" Cyrus? She has NO range and flat out can't sing. The only reason she has a career is because she came out of the "Disney Machine," which turns any one of their little stars on the Disney Channel into a "singer."

This disgusts me. Hello- Crystal Bowersox (i think that's how you spell her name) needs NO advice from Miley Cyrus. Seriously?! This season has been bad, but still, I venture to say all of those kids are better singers than Miley. This just disgusts me.

Confusion

I'm as confused as ever. I got an e-mail from the man I love saying I shouldn't have to wait for him because his life is insecure right now and very uncertain... saying we should be friends.

Am I too much of a girl if this says to me "yes, I should wait"? Especially when a man tells me that I'm a good woman and I deserve better. Would a lesser man say that? I don't know. Is it a line to keep me "on the line" as suggested by someone else I know? I don't know.

I'm just trying to pray for strength and wisdom.. maybe some discernment. Its hard for me to see this objectively.

Healthcare

No, I don't feel like I should have to pay for people's healthcare that can't pay for it themselves. The end.

Sandy Rios Vs. Lady Gaga?

So I stumbled across a video online while reading another article that really made me surprisingly angry. (Click on the title of this post to get to the video).

This woman, Sandy Rios was talking (and really going off) about the new Lady Gaga video. She was saying that this video was poisoning the mind of our children, and also had the audacity to say it was mentally raping them.

This really ticks me off, because any parent who is allowing or encouraging their children to watch this Lady Gaga video shouldn't have kids. No, its not for kids... It is not meant for kids. People shouldn't be allowing their kids to watch these things... and if they fault is theirs.

Although some of the video is shocking (I began to watch it at work, and switched it off because she wasn't wearing a whole lot, and it was rather racy). However, she's not wearing much less than Beyonce does in a performance (she's a big fan of the leotards lately).

I know Lady Gaga is polarizing, but she admits she's an artist. I actually am quite a fan of her music. Sometimes her fashion is a little weird, but that's also how high fashion often is... and its no different than some of the costumes that made Cher famous (remember the "If I could turn back time" music video? She was bearing her booty and the tattoo on it). Not to mention Madonna.. she was VERY controversial back in the day.. now she's just got scary manish arms.

So basically Sandy Rios needs to shut up. She's an idiot. She may not like it, but the constitution protects the freedom of speech, and in a way, yes this is art. Much art is Controversial. It may not be moral. It may not even mean that the person performing it partakes in certain acts, or is a bad person. A lot of this stuff is done for publicity and to make a name for an artist/director/whomever.

Sandy Rios also says that this is feeding sexual predators desires. I'm sorry, but you're coo coo. There are a lot of other horrible things on line and in the world that will feed those sexual predators and their demented desires and thoughts. Don't blame Lady Gaga for the next 12 women who get raped or worse. There are always going to be bad people in the world... its not Lady Gaga causing them to assault women or even worse, children.

But having said that, Don't let your kids watch this! I can understand if you let your kids listen to the song "Telephone." It has a great beat, and it can be fun for kids to sing... I can't think of the words and don't know if all of it is appropriate for small kids. But this just shows that parents need to talk to their kids about sex, strangers, and all of that before something or someone else teaches them about it.

To All You Men Out There

Just for you men.. I'd like to give you some advice.

When you want to "take a break" or break-up with a woman... just do it. Don't drag it out... don't play games behind her back, don't stop calling/e-mailing/returning her calls. Don't change your phone number. Don't just disappear. You see, you might see this as the easiest way out... but its the cowardly way out. Its the weak way out. You see this as avoiding the tears, maybe the anger that she will have toward you. However, we see it as demeaning, insulting, and flat out rude. There's no closure. No explanation. Believe me, we'd much rather know that you're "just not that into us" rather than not knowing what happened.

You see, when we don't know what happened, we blame ourselves. We think "maybe its because I said this." Or maybe we think its because we did that (or didn't do something else). We don't know. This is not right. You can at least me man enough to tell a woman that you no longer want to see her TO HER FACE. NOT via text, e-mail, voicemail or letter. You need to tell her to her face. She deserves this much, no matter how upset you might make her. If you want to break up, you might have to deal with some tears. If you're a real man, you should be able to take that heat. A few tears? I mean would you rather her hate you forever? Believe me, its a lot easier to get over a guy when he breaks up with you like a man, rather than like a little boy- by just running away.

Ironically, the only man who has ever broken up with me in a proper way (to my face, with some honesty) was a man who is now openly gay. Really? And you straight guys can't handle it? Aren't you supposed to be the alpha males who can handle anything? It might be uncomfortable, it might be no fun, but its the right thing to do. And if you can't handle it, quite frankly you don't deserve any woman that you might be dumping for some stupid reason... because let's face it.. most of the reasons are idiotic.

Give up

I give up. I can't take it anymore. I just give up. Love isn't worth the heartache.