My Heart - by Kristen Lea

Don't ever use free credit score.com. I hate these people right now. They tell you that they will give you a credit score free, then ask for your card to "verify your identity" and then charge you a 15 dollar "membership fee" for them to watch your credit score. Then when you call them, like I did they say "you got a free credit score." I told them, No I didn't because you charged me. Then they gave me my money back. ALSO, never buy anything online through walmart. I did.. well tried.. twice this weekend. First Friday I put in an order for a laptop. Then it got cancelled, which they never told me. I only found it was cancelled by checking the status of my order. They said it was cancelled because they "couldn't verify the security of my payment" or some BS. I used paypal!!! Anyway, Then SATURDAY, I tried again using my debit card. So, they cancelled it AGAIN stating that it was basically an inventory issue (they didn't hav...

Lyrics to a Buckcherry song called "sorry" Oh I have a lot to say was thinking of my time away I missed you and things weren't the same Cause everything inside it never comes out right And when I see you cry it makes me want to die I'm sorry I'm bad I'm sorry you're blue I'm sorry about all the things I said to you And I know I can't take it back I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds, and baby the way you make my world go round And I just wanted to say I'm sorry This time I think I'm to blame It's harder to get through the days You get older and blame turns to shame Every single day I think about how we came all this way the sleepless nights and the tears you've cried its never to late to make it right all right sorry I'm sorry I'm bad I'm sorry you're blue I'm sorry about all the things I said to you And I know I can't take it back I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds, and baby the way you make ...

Wow. I just read an article online (link is above.. click on the title of the blog) that says that Miley Cyrus is going to be the "mentor" on this week's "Idol." Really AI? Couldn't find someone better than MILEY "Man voice" Cyrus? She has NO range and flat out can't sing. The only reason she has a career is because she came out of the "Disney Machine," which turns any one of their little stars on the Disney Channel into a "singer." This disgusts me. Hello- Crystal Bowersox (i think that's how you spell her name) needs NO advice from Miley Cyrus. Seriously?! This season has been bad, but still, I venture to say all of those kids are better singers than Miley. This just disgusts me.

I'm as confused as ever. I got an e-mail from the man I love saying I shouldn't have to wait for him because his life is insecure right now and very uncertain... saying we should be friends. Am I too much of a girl if this says to me "yes, I should wait"? Especially when a man tells me that I'm a good woman and I deserve better. Would a lesser man say that? I don't know. Is it a line to keep me "on the line" as suggested by someone else I know? I don't know. I'm just trying to pray for strength and wisdom.. maybe some discernment. Its hard for me to see this objectively.

No, I don't feel like I should have to pay for people's healthcare that can't pay for it themselves. The end.

So I stumbled across a video online while reading another article that really made me surprisingly angry. (Click on the title of this post to get to the video). This woman, Sandy Rios was talking (and really going off) about the new Lady Gaga video. She was saying that this video was poisoning the mind of our children, and also had the audacity to say it was mentally raping them. This really ticks me off, because any parent who is allowing or encouraging their children to watch this Lady Gaga video shouldn't have kids. No, its not for kids... It is not meant for kids. People shouldn't be allowing their kids to watch these things... and if they fault is theirs. Although some of the video is shocking (I began to watch it at work, and switched it off because she wasn't wearing a whole lot, and it was rather racy). However, she's not wearing much less than Beyonce does in a performance (she's a big fan of the leotards lately). I know Lady Gaga is polarizing, but s...

Just for you men.. I'd like to give you some advice. When you want to "take a break" or break-up with a woman... just do it. Don't drag it out... don't play games behind her back, don't stop calling/e-mailing/returning her calls. Don't change your phone number. Don't just disappear. You see, you might see this as the easiest way out... but its the cowardly way out. Its the weak way out. You see this as avoiding the tears, maybe the anger that she will have toward you. However, we see it as demeaning, insulting, and flat out rude. There's no closure. No explanation. Believe me, we'd much rather know that you're "just not that into us" rather than not knowing what happened. You see, when we don't know what happened, we blame ourselves. We think "maybe its because I said this." Or maybe we think its because we did that (or didn't do something else). We don't know. This is not right. You can at least me...

I give up. I can't take it anymore. I just give up. Love isn't worth the heartache.

I miss him. I don't know what to do. There's no way for me to contact him. I feel helpless. I hate feeling that way. Did I mention I miss him? Its not normal to be seeing someone and not actually SEE them for a long period of time. I'm ashamed to even say how long. But I know it isn't my fault. Is it his fault? I don't know. All I know is that the one person I want to talk to in the whole world is the one person I haven't been able to talk with for too long. So many people tell me their opinions. They tell me their opinion of a man they've never met. The only person who hasn't told me to cut my losses is my best friend... because she knows me best. I hope that's why at least... oh and my friend Amber... she told me to follow my heart. I have been following my heart. Now my heart hurts. But in the end could it all be worth it? Maybe. I don't know. I'm too used to being abandoned and having my heart broken. I hate it. Can't ONE t...