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Good Men

Are there any good men left? Not just men, but good men?

This is why I ask:

Last night I was minding my own little business when a guy I went to HS with messaged me. I never really associated with him in HS, and don't know much about him really. He started asking me questions like "Would you have gone out with me if I had asked in HS," and stuff like that. I didn't want to be mean (because No, I wouldn't have), so I tried to be diplomatic about it. Then he asked me if I was single. I thought this was odd, because I knew for a fact he was married and had a baby, because I had spoken to his mother (not realizing who she was) last summer.

So it proceeded to get creepier.... he said if we were both single, that he'd take me out, because I was "looking good" and that he wished we were both single. Apparently I had no say in the matter. He would take me out if we were both single, whether I wanted to or not!

He asked me if I wanted to see a photo of him. …


So I have had multiple people say to me that they think I have a good heart. They say something like this "You have a good heart. I just wish you would let more people see that about you."

Here's the problem with that:

I have many times allowed people "in." I've allowed people to see into my heart. You know what has happened? A lot of bad things. My heart has been broken and stomped on. I've been taken advantage of, stolen from, and mistreated in other ways. Disappointed... over & over again. Not just romantically either. This has happened to me with people I thought were my friends.

This is very difficult for me to deal with. It has made me really have problems with trusting people.

This is not uncommon. For a long time I shut myself off completely from meeting new people.  I have been better lately but it is something that I have to work on. I'm really, really trying. No matter what other people might think.